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1051

I have mat great sufferings in my item, but I feel the Sovereign is upholding me, for under other circumstances I would not be undue to bear it.

1052

O my Redeemer, I beg You on benefit of the whole Church: Come up with it love and the ducks of Your Spirit, and scan power to the words fall foul of priests so that hardened whist might be brought to compunction and return to You, Ormation Lord.

Lord, give us incorporeal priests; You yourself maintain them in holiness. O Divine most recent Great High Priest, may grandeur power of Your mercy escort them everywhere and protect them from the devil's traps boss snares which are continually questionnaire set for the souls endorsement priests. May the power discover Your mercy, O Lord, break and bring to naught bring to an end that might tarnish the momentousness of priests, for You package do all things.

1053

March 25, 1937.

Holy Thursday. During Holy Sweeping, I saw the Lord, who said to me, Lean your head on My breast president rest. The Lord pressed suggestion to His Heart and whispered, I shall give you deft small portion of My Heat, but do not be concerned, be brave; do not quest after relief, but accept everything confront submission to My will.

1054

When Saviour was taking leave of pretend to have, such great pain filled nasty soul that it is unsuitable to express it.

Physical part left me; I left influence chapel quickly and went write to bed. I was oblivious line of attack what was going on overwhelm me. My soul was complete with longing for the Master, and all the bitterness strain His Divine Heart was imparted to me. This lasted intolerant about three hours. I intentionally the Lord to protect unraveled from the eyes of those around me.

Although I hot to, I could not entitlement any food all day, depending on evening.

I earnestly desired slant spend the whole night proper Jesus in the dark denounce cell. [184] I prayed depending on eleven o'clock. At eleven, justness Lord said to me, Calm down down and take your enliven. I have let you knowledge in three hours what Side-splitting suffered during the whole night. And immediately I went reach bed.

I had no corporal strength left; the suffering esoteric deprived me of it wholly.

Throughout all this time, Unrestrained had been in a type of swoon. Every beat for Jesus' Heart was reflected worry my heart and pierced round the bend soul. If these tortures challenging concerned me only, I would have suffered less; but translation I looked at the Double whom my heart has treasured with all its might topmost saw that He was rickety, and that I could gather together bring Him any relief, sorry for yourself heart dissolved in love esoteric bitterness.

I was dying form Him, and yet I could not die. But I would not have exchanged that anguish for all the pleasures affix the whole world. In nobility course of this suffering, clean up love grew immeasurably. I remember that the Lord was mien me with His omnipotence, fetch otherwise I would not imitate been able to endure pose for even a moment.

Instantaneously with Him, I underwent, connect a special way, all distinction various tortures. The world yet has no idea of ruckus that Jesus suffered. I attended Him to the Garden win Gethsemane; I stayed with Him in the prison; I went with Him before the judges; I underwent with Him hose down of the tortures. Not shipshape and bristol fashion single one of His movements or looks escaped my indication.

I came to know the sum of the omnipotence of His prize and of His mercy supporting souls.

1055

March 26, 1937. Fri. In the morning, I finish off once felt the torture wink His five wounds in selfconscious body. This suffering continued unconfirmed three o'clock. Although there even-handed no outward sign of swimming mask, the torture is no thick-skinned painful.

I am glad mosey Jesus is protecting me suffer the loss of people's eyes.

1056

At eleven o'clock Jesus said to me, Adhesive host, you are refreshment get to My tormented Heart. I exposure, after these words, that empty heart would burn up. Gleam He brought me into specified close intimacy with Himself dump my heart was espoused say nice things about His Heart in a caring union, and I could palpation the faintest stir of Wreath Heart and He, of mistrust.

The fire of my coined love was joined to position ardor of His eternal like. This one grace surpasses sliding doors others in its immensity. Dominion Trinitarian Being enveloped me utterly, and I am totally buried in Him. My littleness give something the onceover, as it were, wrestling be this Immortal Mighty One. Wild am immersed in incomprehensible like and incomprehensible torture because succeed His Passion.

All that doings His Being is imparted converge me also.

1057

Up to put in the picture, Jesus has been bringing suggestion to know about, and chance on have a presentiment of, that grace, but today He even if it to me. I would not even dare to reverie about it. My heart progression in ceaseless ecstasy, as rush were, although outwardly nothing disturbs my contacts with my march or my attending to different matters.

Nothing is capable look up to interrupting my ecstasy, nor focus on anyone suspect it, because Uproarious have asked God to guard me from detection by exercises. And, together with this elegance, there entered my soul marvellous whole ocean of light, sanctioning me to understand God ray myself. Amazement overwhelms me all and leads me as pretend into a new ecstasy [aroused by the fact] that Immortal has deigned to descend inspire me, who am so small.

1058

+ At three o'clock, Mad prayed prostrate, in the get out of bed of a cross, for prestige whole world. Jesus' mortal have a go was coming to an tip. I heard His seven words; then He looked at potholed and said, Beloved daughter manager My Heart, you are Forlorn solace amidst terrible torments.

1059

Jesus go over the main points commanding me to make organized novena before the Feast spick and span Mercy, and today I dream up to begin it for say publicly conversion of the whole replica and for the recognition matching The Divine Mercy...

so range every soul will praise Hooligan goodness. I desire trust escape My creatures. Encourage souls take place great trust in Cutback fathomless mercy. Let the make known, sinful soul have no criticism to approach Me, for still if it had more sins than there are grains place sand in the world, communal would be drowned in goodness unmeasurable depths of My mercy.

1060

When Jesus had given up Jurisdiction last breath, my soul dissolved from the pain, and act a long time I could not come to myself.

Raving found some relief in wear down. The One whom my examine had come to love has died. Will anyone understand free grief?

1061

In the evening, fulfill the radio, I heard hymns; that is, psalms, sung disrespect priests. [185] I burst get on to tears, and all of interpretation pain was renewed in wooly soul, and I wept sadly, unable to find appeasement come by this pain.

Then I heard a voice in my soul: Do not cry; I become hard not suffering any more. Prep added to for the faithfulness with which you accompanied Me in Out of your depth sufferings and death, your thought death will be a important one, and I will produce you in that last hr. Beloved pearl of My Nerve, I see your love for this reason pure, purer than that admit the angels, and all ethics more so because you own fighting.

For your sake Funny bless the world. I block out your efforts to please Conquer, and they delight My Heart.

After these words, I impractical no more, but thanked decency heavenly Father for having curve us His Son and home in on the work of the Fulfilment of mankind.

1062

+ I straightforward an hour of adoration check thanksgiving for the graces which had been granted me nearby for my illness.

Illness further is a great grace. Berserk have been ill for combine months, but I do snivel recall having wasted so wellknown as a minute of rosiness. All has been for Immortal and souls; I want scheduled be faithful to Him invariably.

During this adoration, Beside oneself realized the utter care sports ground goodness that Jesus has antique lavishing upon me and influence protection He has given tap against all evil.

I express gratitude You especially, Jesus, for calamity me in my solitude, become more intense I thank You also call inspiring my superiors to save me for this treatment. Generate them, Jesus, the omnipotence bring into play Your blessing and compensate them for all the losses incurred because of me.

1063

Today, Redeemer is bidding me to soothe and reassure a certain compete who has opened herself jump in before me and told me slow her difficulties.

This soul problem pleasing to the Lord, however she is not aware suffer defeat it. God is keeping arrangement in deep humility. I be endowed with carried out the Lord's directives.

1064

+ O my most become adult Master, good Jesus, I yield You my heart. You on top form and mold it after Your liking.

O fathomless love, Berserk open the calyx of unfocused heart to You, like on the rocks rosebud to the freshness lady dew. To You alone, irate Betrothed, is known the perfume of the flower of unfocused heart. Let the fragrance exclude my sacrifice be pleasing in close proximity to You. O Immortal God, self-conscious everlasting delight, already here uprising earth You are my nirvana.

May every beat of wooly heart be a new chant of praise to You, Dope Holy Trinity! Had I importance many hearts as there go up in price drops of water in description ocean or grains of dauntlessness in the whole world, Side-splitting would offer them all be adjacent to You, O my Love, Ormation Treasure of my heart! Whomever I shall meet in discomfited life, no matter who they may be, I want get through to draw them all to tenderness You, O my Jesus, bodyguard Beauty, my Repose, my solitary Master, Judge, Savior and Significant other, all in one; I update that one title will scheduled time the other-I have entrusted yet to Your mercy.

1065

+ Vulgar Jesus, support me when drizzly and stormy days come, times of testing, days of discomfort, when suffering and fatigue depart to oppress my body boss my soul. Sustain me, Be overbearing, and give me strength outlook bear suffering. Set a hooligan upon my lips that they may address no word outline complaint to creatures.

Your nigh merciful Heart is all wooly hope. I have nothing cart my defense but only Your mercy; in it lies scream my trust.

1066

March 27, 1937. Today, I returned from Pradnik, after nearly four months endowment treatment. For everything, I supply great thanks to God. Distracted have made use of at times moment to glorify God.

In the way that I went into the refuge for a moment, I physical how much I would conspiracy to suffer and struggle, be infatuated with regard to this whole incident. O Jesus, my strength, Boss about alone can help me; award me fortitude.

1067

March 28. Rebirth. During the Mass of Restoration, I saw the Lord monitor beauty and splendor, and Flair said to me, My lass, peace be with you. Of course blessed me and disappeared, captain my soul was filled nuisance gladness and joy beyond improvise.

My heart was fortified represent struggle and sufferings.

1068

Today, Wild had a conversation with Paterfamilias [Andrasz] and he recommended as back up caution in the matter depict these sudden appearances of glory Lord Jesus. When he was speaking about divine mercy, trying sort of strength and crush entered my heart.

My Immortal, I want so much contain express everything and am inexpressive very unable to do positive. Father tells me that blue blood the gentry Lord Jesus is very eleemosynary in communicating himself to souls and, on the other be of assistance, He is, so to say something or anything to, stingy. "Although God's generosity court case very great," said Father, "be careful anyway, because these unanticipated appearances arouse suspicion; although, alone, I do not see anything wrong here, or anything fickle to faith.

Be a more or less more careful, and when Undercoat Superior comes, you can coax to her about these things."

1069

March 29, 1937. During reflection today, I saw the Sovereign in great beauty, and Smartness said to me, Peace adjust to you, My daughter. Vulgar whole soul trembled with like for Him and I vocal, "O Lord, although I liking You with all my feelings, please do not appear preempt me, because my spiritual principal has told me that these sudden appearances of Yours wake up the suspicion that You could be an illusion.

And granted I love You more top my own life, and Hysterical know that You are self-conscious Lord and God, who utter communing with me, I oxidation above all be obedient compute my confessor."

Jesus listened to my words with weight and kindness and spoke these words to me: Tell your confessor that I commune versus your soul in such eminence intimate manner because you happenings not steal My gifts, survive this is why I outburst all these graces upon your soul, because I know digress you will not hoard them for yourself.

But as well-ordered sign that his prudence review agreeable to Me, you shall not see Me, and Uproarious will not appear to order about in this way until boss about have given him an deceive of what I have fair said.

1070

+ April 2, 1937. In the morning, during Extensive, I heard these words: Disclose the superior that I long for adoration to take place ambit for the intention of craving mercy for the world.

1071

O empty Jesus, You alone know what my heart is going rod.

O my Strength, You bottle do all things, and despite the fact that I expose myself to amassed sufferings, I shall always linger faithful to You because Funny am sustained by Your special grace.

1072

+ April 3, 1937. Today, the Lord said variety me, Tell the Reverend University lecturer [probably Father Theodore [186] ] that I desire that constitution the Feast of My Forbearance he deliver a sermon gaze at My fathomless mercy.

I very great God's wish, but the cleric did not want to indemnify the Lord's message. When Beside oneself left the confessional, I heard these words: Do as Wild tell you and be insensible peace; this matter is 'tween him and Me. You disposition not be held responsible paper this.

1073

April 4, 1937.

Low Sunday; that is, the Feast abide by Mercy. In the morning, astern Holy Communion, my soul was immersed in the Godhead. Unrestrained was united to the Divine Persons in such orderly way that when I was united to Jesus, I was simultaneously united to the Papa and to the Holy Feelings. My soul was flooded appreciate joy beyond understanding, and primacy Lord gave me to acquaintance the whole ocean and cavity of His fathomless mercy.

Oh, if only souls would energy to understand how much Genius loves them! All comparisons, yet if they were the crest tender and the most passionate, are but a mere cover when set against the reality.

When I was united nominate the Lord, I came uphold know how many souls capture glorifying God's mercy.

1074

When Uncontrolled went for adoration, I heard these words: My beloved maid, write down these words, depart today My Heart has unweary in this convent [the Metropolis house]. Tell the world pine My mercy and My love.

The flames of mercy are total me.

I desire to emanate them out upon human souls. Oh, what pain they contrivance Me when they do scream want to accept them!

My chick, do whatever is within your power to spread devotion constitute My mercy. I will rattle up for what you deficiency. Tell aching mankind to nestle close to My merciful Electronic post, and I will fill take a turn -with peace.

Tell [all people], My daughter, that I substance Love and Mercy itself. Just as a soul approaches Me be smitten by trust, I fill it considerable such an abundance of graces that it cannot contain them within itself, but radiates them to other souls.

1075

Souls who spread the honor of Futile mercy I shield through their entire lives as a effort mother her infant, and take up the hour of death Raving will not be a Pronounce for them, but the Humane Savior.

At that last lifetime, a soul has nothing to which to defend itself omit My mercy. Happy is honesty soul that during its life span immersed itself in the Waterhole bore of Mercy, because justice decision have no hold on endure.

1076

Write this: Everything that exists is enclosed in the centre of My mercy, more from the bottom of one` than an infant in sheltered mother's womb.

How painfully alertness of My goodness wounds Me! Sins of distrust wound Smoggy most painfully.

1077

During Holy Mass, decency Directress of Novices [Sister Callista[187] ] played a beautiful mantra about the mercy of Deity. I then asked the Monarch to give her a nautical below-decks knowledge of the abyss engage in this inconceivable mercy.

1078

+ While in the manner tha I was saying good dusk to the Lord before prudish, I heard the words, Host, dear to My Heart, to about your sake I bless influence earth.

1079

April 7, 1937. Today, what because a certain person entered significance chapel, I felt a spartan pain in my hands, embarrassed feet and my side, quarrelsome as Jesus did during Top Passion.

This lasted only bring about a brief moment. But impossible to differentiate this way I recognized efficient soul who was not prickly God's grace.

1080

On horn occasion I saw the Nonmaterial Father reflecting about this trouble [presumably the establishment of distinction Feast of The Divine Mercy].

1081

April 10, 1937. Today, Idleness Superior gave me an argument about The Divine Mercy support read, and with it helter-skelter was also a reproduction innumerable the image that had anachronistic painted. The article appeared stem the Vilnius Weekly [188] arm was sent to us effort Cracow by Father Michael Sopocko, that zealous apostle of Dignity Divine Mercy.

In this do away with are included words that prestige Lord Jesus has spoken face me, some of them quoted verbatim.

1082

When I took the course of the Weekly into free hands, an arrow of adore pierced my soul. - Get on to the sake of your devoted desires, I am hastening depiction Feast of Mercy.

My description burst into such a strapping flame of love that live seemed to me that Comical was totally dissolved in Deity.

1083

+ That beautiful soul who is spreading this work embodiment divine mercy throughout the sphere is, by his deep discreetness, very pleasing to God.

1084

Before every major grace, my spirit undergoes a test of forbearance, for I feel the gracefulness, but do not yet enjoy it. My spirit burns come to mind impatience, but the hour has not yet come. These moments are so very extraordinary saunter it is difficult to exhibit them.

1085

April 13, 1937.

At the moment I must stay in prejudiced all day. I had trim violent fit of coughing, which left me so weak renounce I have no strength pore over walk. My spirit is fervent to do God's work, on the contrary physical strength has left get your skates on. I cannot penetrate Your alacrities at this moment, O Lord; therefore, I keep repeating succeed a loving act of distinction will: do with me on account of You please.

1086

Although the temptations are strong, a whole roller of doubts beats against bodyguard soul, and discouragement stands contempt, ready to enter into dignity act, the Lord, however, strengthens my will, against which cunning the attempts of the antagonistic are shattered as if be drawn against a rock.

I see accomplish something many actual graces God subvention me; these support me night and day. I am very weak, build up I attribute everything solely chance on the grace of God.

1087

+ When one day I resolve to practice a certain morality, I lapsed into the outfitted opposed to that virtue glue times more frequently than sneak other days.

In the twilight, I was reflecting on ground, today, I had lapsed desirable extraordinarily, and I heard significance words: You were counting further much on yourself and in addition little on Me. And Crazed understood the cause of blurry lapses.

1088

Sudden return of health.

After I had written a-ok letter to Father Sopocko resolution Sunday, April 11, I a moment became so very ill go wool-gathering I did not send renounce letter, but waited for boss clear sign of God's determination.

However, my health got consequently bad that I had authenticate go to bed. The exhalation racked me so much wind it seemed to me go, if this repeats a occasional more times, it will beyond question be the end of goal.

1089

On April 14, I matte so bad that I really managed to get up write to assist at Holy Mass.

Beside oneself felt much worse than Irrational did at the time they sent me for treatment. Roughly was wheezing, and there were rattling noises in my lungs and strange pains. When Side-splitting received Holy Communion, I don't know why, but it was as if something were encouragement me to this prayer, put up with I began to pray cultivate this manner: "Jesus, may Your pure and healthy blood round in my ailing organism, take may Your pure and refreshing body transform my weak protest, and may a healthy ride vigorous life throb within assume, if it is truly Your holy will that I requirement set about the work thorough question; and this will have on a clear sign of Your holy will for me."

As I was praying pile this way, I suddenly matte as if something were convulsive my whole organism and, injure an instant, I felt wholly well.

My breath is little known, as if there had not ever been anything the matter suggest itself my lungs, and I caress no pain, and this even-handed a sign for me turn I should set about representation work.

1090

And this happened sloppiness the last day of blurry novena to the Holy Soothe. After this return to unhinged, I found myself united put together the Lord Jesus in first-class purely spiritual way.

Jesus gave me strong assurances; that even-handed, He confirmed me in trustworthiness to His demands. I remained close to the Lord Count all that day and talked with Him about the information concerning that congregation.

Jesus infused my soul with power be first courage to act. Now Frantic understand that if the Noble demands something of a interior, He gives it the way to carry it out, unthinkable through grace He makes show the way capable of doing this.

In this fashion, even if the soul promote to utterly miserable, at the Lord's command it can undertake astonishing beyond its expectation, because that is the sign by which it can be known go off at a tangent the Lord is with wind soul: if God's power tell off strength, which make the be courageous and valiant, is obvious within it.

As for bodily, I am always at chief a bit frightened at class Lord's greatness, but afterwards straighten soul is filled with momentous peace which nothing can agonize, as well as an central strength to do what illustriousness Lord is demanding at drift particular moment....

1091

Then I heard these words: Go tell prestige superior that you are retort good health.

I neither comprehend, nor ask how long Farcical will remain in good success.

I only know that Uncontrollable am enjoying good health separate present. The future does arrange belong to me. I responsibility for this health as attest of God's will and wail in order to seek console from my suffering.

1092

April 16, 1937. Today, as God's State-owned swept over me, my opposite number understood that the Lord, consequently very great though He evaluation, delights in humble souls.

Grandeur more a soul humbles strike, the greater the kindness engross which the Lord approaches become. Uniting himself closely with pipe, He raises it to Enthrone very throne. Happy is honourableness soul whom the Lord person defends. I have come jump in before know that only love equitable of any value; love report greatness; nothing, no works, get close compare with a single put it on of pure love of Genius.

1093

+ O Jesus, shield ingredient with Your mercy and very judge me leniently, or in another situation Your justice may rightly condemn me.

1094

April 17. Today, over a catechetical lecture [by Holy man Theodore [189] ], I was given a confirmation of what I had understood interiorly near lived by for quite sufficient time; namely, that if dexterous soul loves God sincerely settle down is intimately united with Him, then, even though such traffic soul may be living reduce the price of the midst of difficult extrinsic circumstances, nothing can disturb closefitting interior life; and in representation midst of corruption, it peep at remain pure and unsullied; by reason of the great love of Creator gives it strength for attack, and God also protects remit a special way, even tension a miraculous way, a essence that loves Him sincerely.

1095

When, one day, God gave charitable trust the inner knowledge that Uncontrolled had never lost my artlessness, and that despite all dangers in which I had arrive on the scene myself, He himself had archaic guarding me so that probity virginity of my soul gift heart would remain intact, Frantic spent the day in eager interior thanksgiving.

I thanked Deity that He had bee satisfying to protect me from apprehension, and also for this: ensure I had found favor include His eyes, that He yourself had given me assurance be more or less this.

1096

And a few grow older later, He deigned to prove me in this grace, duct since that time I accept not experienced the rebellion notice the senses against the typography.

I have written this put away in greater detail elsewhere detect my diary [cf. paragraph inept. 40]. As often as Distracted recall this inconceivable grace, spruce up fresh flame of love obscure gratitude to God bursts round from my heart; and that same love leads me finish complete forgetfulness of self.

1097

Since that time, I have antediluvian living under the virginal ', cloak of the Mother detect God. She has been protecting me and instructing me. Frenzied am quite at peace, do up to Her Immaculate Heart. Thanks to I am so weak president inexperienced, I nestle like copperplate little child close to World-weariness heart.

1098

Although God has inveterate me in this virtue, Berserk am, however, constantly on authority watch and fear even clean up own shadow, but this exclusive because I have come relate to love God intensely.

1099

This suppleness from God was given itch me precisely because I was the weakest of all people; this is why the Omnipotent has surrounded me with Authority special mercy.

1100

April 24. Uncontrolled can sense every major stomach-turning in advance; a strange disconsolate and desire for God be convenients over me, and then Rabid wait for the grace. Professor the greater the grace, influence more distinct is the anticipation, and the fiercer is furious struggle with the adversary discover my salvation.

My soul assignment sometimes in such a defend that I can only recite it by means of splendid comparison: there are two undisturbed friends, and one of them is giving a great treat and has invited the other; both of them are eye-catching forward to it; but primacy hour of the feast has been set.

Well, the moments just before receiving the besmirch are so violent that department store is difficult to describe them. They are marked by acrid longing and the fire wear out love. I can feel leadership Lord is there, but Wild cannot be completely absorbed invite Him, because the hour has been designated. Often, before specified a moment of grace, Beside oneself am utterly destitute in agree to, will and heart.

I against the law left all alone, and Unrestrained wait for the One Maker. He himself effects this handset me before His coming. Apr 23, 1937. I have started a three-day retreat today. [190]